trying to find some balance...

the last few weeks have been a little tough for me. i knew i was going to be taking on a lot all at once this year, but i am really starting to realize just how hard it is to fill each role that i have taken on. i am really struggling right now to find the balance i need in my life. I'm not unhappy by any means, but i can't say that i feel at peace. while i am thrilled to have the job i have waited so long to obtain, and i absolutely love it, i also can't help but feel guilty that i have to spend so much time away from my children. i feel like i'm missing out on so much. kenley has been really cranky in the evenings lately and that has been really hard on me because it makes me feel like a horrible mom. i spend all day away from her at work and then the time that i do get to spend with her before she goes to bed hasn't been hasn't been the quality time that i long for. chad and i don't get to spend much time together. we really need to get out and do something as a couple but i have been reluctant to do that because that takes even more time away from my kids. and needless to say, i don't set aside any time just for myself even though i have been completely exhausted and my emotions are starting to get the best of me. i know i need to take care of myself first so that i can do my best at work and take care of my family. but how in the world do balance everything?? i have such a longing to be "superwoman." i want to be the most loving and involved mom i can be to my kids, an attentive and loving wife to my husband, develop deeper relationships with those that i love, be a great teacher who goes above and beyond for my students, be a woman of god and grow spiritually each day, and take time to just be me. how do i do all of those things and do them all adequately? i know i will never be perfect and i'm not trying to be, but i just want to feel confident that i'm doing well in every aspect and that i'm truly giving all i have to give.